getting it right

it is the journey of to be and to do..

so many things

First: Start from a clean slate (the right Niat)
Second: Equip with quality brush and expert hands
Third: Think (requires experience) and Just do it

bear in mind
we are all learning
will always have to learn
to improve

have i imagined I'd be here?
that I'd be this person?
no, not really
but i am
in the past, I'd be the canvas
now, I'd be the painter
who gets to choose what colour
what brushstroke method am gonna use
a lot of it is conscious effort
of self-mastery
TD

"saatan fa saatan" (step-by-step)
:)

daun long-bean

seakan tak terputus utusan doa kelangit
ucapan Alhamdulillah dibibir-bibir mulut =')

mengungkap hadis kegemaran..
hadis Rasulullah saw,
" sekiranya akan tiba hari kiamat, dan di tangan salah seorang kamu ada biji benih dan dia berupaya menanamnya, maka hendaklah dia tanam. sesungguhnya untuk dia ada pahala bagi yang demikian."

aku belajar melihat cahaya
tangan-tangan kecil memaut lengan
mata yang tersenyum
ucapan yang tak segan silu
ketulusan mereka, ya Allah
mengajarku tentang kehidupan
untuk sentiasa memberi
dan mencintai
seakan tangan manos
yang dengan satu sentuhan, bukan emas yang menyebar
namun, sebuah kebaikkan yang mencecah kehujung horizon bumi dan menembus langitMu
amar maaruf nahi mungkar
nahi mungkar?
ya
kerana kebaikkan pertama adalah menjauhi/meninggalkan yang mungkar
ada hidup yang lebih bererti, lebih bermakna
iaitu hidup dan mati keranaNya

setiap yang ku lihat kini adalah pengesahan
bagaimana rupa mengejar dunia
sia-sia
seperti membina rumah di sarang labah-labah
sangat fragile

langkah ini mungkin perlahan
namun aku sungguh cukup bahagia
mengenalMu ya Rabb
adalah melalui mata malaikat-malaikat kecilMu
dengan ini aku boleh melangkah

bekal yang akan ku simpan kemas dalam hati
apabila mengubati luka perih seorang remaja
lirih dan dukacita alam dewasa
cahaya ini..
izinkan aku berkongsikannya
belajar tadabbur alamMu
berinteraksi dengan hamba-hambaMu
mengajak telus kepada kehidupan yang lebih abadi
izinkan aku berusaha memetik bunganya dan harumnya
tidak perlu bau hangus dan debu menghiasi perjalanan dan perjuangan
tetapi jika itu diperlukan
titipkanlah keteguhan iman dan langkah
kerana janji pada kehidupan yang cerah ada ditangan kecil-kecil ini
dengan izinMu, ya Allah
bantulah kami menyemai benih ditanah suci dan subur
andai susah
lindungilah kami dengan pagar yang menolak rumput-rumput liar
agar mereka dapat berdiri, ya Allah

sunset

there's many gateways u entered as you grew,sometimes you forget from which door you came from..then, a ray of light stop you in your tracks. warm and familiar..
finally,you look around.
"where am i?"
this wanderer suddenly realize where she is.
here she stood from where she had been.
her future..and yet her past,in a different form, in a different perspective.

Moving forward in a headlong rush, more than often you missed the small details you passed every day. That where you've been standing is a reflection of your past. Places and people..familiar sights and sounds.

I was caught.

There are people that still have their past preserves in them. Through their child-like eyes and through their speeches. honest and true. they had lived a simple life, handled love and lost. they're kampung-dwellers. time might have changed, but little do they.

i was one, once.
it struck me how different i had become now.
more surprised to realized that the child still speaks
when i saw that sunset..
a familiarity i was apart from for a long time..and yet, now it seems like it was yesterday.
my place
and the children under my care

my past and their present

didn't matter how the dust blew through lungs and stings the eyes
choked up by orders or harsh words
preserves in these child soul is a memory
and i might..i just might..be the first long-term memory they have.
better leave a good impression,Han. :')