when the wind blows..

Bismillah...

"Atau siapakah yang memperkenankan (doa) orang yang dalam kesulitan apabila ia berdoa kepada-Nya, dan yang menghilangkan kesusahan dan yang menjadikan kamu (manusia) sebagai khalifah di bumi? Apakah disamping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Amat sedikitlah kamu mengingati(Nya).

Atau siapakah yang memimpin kamu dalam kegelapan di dataran dan lautan dan siapa (pula)kah yang mendatangkan angin sebagai kabar gembira sebelum (kedatangan) rahmat-Nya? Apakah disamping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Maha Tinggi Allah terhadap apa yang mereka persekutukan (dengan-Nya)."

An-Naml, 27: 63-64

it's You, O Allah swt~

it's because of You (lillahi taala)

Too High for our knowledge

Too High to understand Your planning

how the world is created, the mechanism, the habitants

these elements rage, yet You are there to control each waves, each shocks

all in submission to You

those of knowledge, use these hikmah well

as a khalifah

it is He who guides your understanding, who led these hands and feet

to be sure in the act of faith

remember

remember

for only a few remembered You

let us not forget You, O Allah swt

let us not be led astray by what the material world means

by the things that appear to be masked by a drape

it'll still be You to pull the rope of the curtain

Your Secrets revealed one by one

"... ketaatan dalam beribadah, 

kadang-kadang perlu dilakukan tanpa memerlukan sebab, melainkan lilahitaala"

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A bad day

Bismillah...

"... berlaku adillah."

I...tried

the result confuses me, hurts me

threatens to break me

what made their heart a blackened tone?

their voice a mockery?

what possessed them to utter words that a Mukmin wouldn't have said?

"No. No. No."

"who said that? I'll give them a piece of my mind."

"They're wrong. You're wrong. I'm right."

what to do?

I slipped away before I uttered a retaliation in anger

no, Sayyidina Ali r.a wouldn't have done that either

when a Musyrikin spat at his face in Ghuzwul Badar, he lowered the sword intended to kill him

"why? why didn't you kill me?"

"because at first I tried to kill you for the sake of Allah swt, but when you spat at me, I'm afraid I'd strike you because of my anger." 

*I wouldn't be beaten down by my own nafs. I did this because of Allah swt.*

Protect that niat.

Even when they threaten to break me down.

"Allah telah menetapkan: "Aku dan rasul-rasul-Ku pasti menang". 

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuat lagi Maha Perkasa." 

Al-Mujadilah, 58 : 21

Forgive them when they seek it from You, O Allah

for I have forgiven them

what's the use of holding unto this anger?

when it (anger) came from the same syaitan who whispers those words into their ears

I feared that they'd forget

"Syaitan telah menguasai mereka lalu menjadikan mereka lupa mengingat Allah; mereka itulah golongan syaitan. Ketahuilah, bahwa sesungguhnya golongan syaitan itulah golongan yang merugi."

Al-Mujadilah, 58: 19

You will win, O Allah~

Your Words would win~

*am holding unto that* 

"You are the One who makes me strong.

I wouldn't be beaten.

If I hold on to You, come what may

this uncharted water, I'd cross it

I'd crossed this ocean

because I'd know You'd be the One guiding me."

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