Looking up

Bismillah..

A defining moment is unexpected, catch you unaware but when it comes..it brought a tide of emotion, or simply just one. 

What it brings is a meaning.

 

Often felt like hiding under the umbrella

fears one unwilling to speak

but then..

comes the gentle mist

the cool rain

and you can't help looking up

to see the clouds, the enlighten glow of sun

and maybe a surprise of colours greeting you

what's real this year begins with that moment

worked hard on something, took considerable time and effort for it

what's left is to go to photocopy it..around 300 pages

left instructions with the photocopier

then I was off, on a book-hunt mission and waiting

i came, expecting to see the outcome happy

he misunderstood

300 pages wasted

i want to dismiss it as an ok! for the photocopier sake

but he saw my crestfallen look, and offered to keep the wrong pages

inside, i was a mess

heavily dissapointed, hurt but mostly..angry

whilst in the car, the tears came, papers thrown in the air

i sat down, buried in whatever emotions i got

it's hard to let go

there I sat, trying to recall as many hadith, Quranic verses i can

to 'deal' with it

to carry on

it (the anger) persist

I read a hundred books but i never read myself

its a line from one of Outlandish songs

the words came and lift my face to see, to read what i am

time for The Lesson

1. Don't assume. Be sure, Be REALLY sure.

2. Make yourself clear

3. Check that the recipient 'understood'

4. Check the initial trial before carrying on (execute similar action)

5. Correct any errors from the beginning

because NOT making sure yourself would leave you not only dissatisfied, the time, effort and money would be lost

it's a parody of life: the outcome you'll get when you bring that attitude forward

when you could've done better

Your destiny is not how one decides for you, but what you decide for yourself

because it's you, who changes

because it's you, who lives

because in the end...

it's you, who 'knows'

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He is near :=')

Bismillah..


Listening: Healing - Sami Yusuf

 The weight of two weeks finally settles in
Alight with His love =')


Twas' the second day of riadah
the enjoined hands unclasped
the game still audible in the background
laughters and voices dimmed


backs turned
and facing the sea
i was greeted with a surreal sight
it rained
but so unlike the one i'm used to seeing
10 minutes
it rained somewhere out on the sea
then it approaches onshore and heading my way
the partition was incredible! XD
the line that seperates land and sea becomes more pronounced when there's heavy rain on the sea, but almost none on the land
awestruck, I watched as the giant gray cumulonimbus descended
and descending still
i looked up, saw it looming at me
 one, two thunder can be heard overhead
the fiercesome note of it and yet I stood there, transfixed and .. giddy :D
defiant and extremely curious
the eyes follow the whispy lines, flowing with measured slowness towards the centre
before it registered to me that i was seeing INSIDE a cloud!
The sun was further away, and yet i can see a light inside it
illuminating the workings of a cloud


 ...
Ya Allah
stranger things happen everyday
once we thought we knew, You surprised us with how much we didn't actually
 teach us what we don't know
 part of doa (after you read a Qur'an)


someone said this recently
"Allah wants His hamba to go to Jannah. To reach there is difficult, so He gives us truth. So that by treading on that path (His path), we can find our way home."

 in a hadith, Rasulullah SAW was trying to describe a tree in Jannah
the best he could describe it is...that it's a tree
the colours everchanging and..there's just NO WORD to describe it.
what about the bountiful fruits, the rivers made of milk and wine?

 MasyaAllah~

oh my Lord
my sin is the highest mountain
my good deeds are very few
like small pebbles

  I can only turn to You
to show me, to guide me,
to help me
for i'm so little
and don't know any better what Your plans are set for me
what life You set for me

Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim
To You, i turn
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