To be fair

Bismillah..

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman hendaklah kamu jadi orang-orang yang selalu menegakkan (kebenaran) karena Allah, menjadi saksi dengan adil. Dan janganlah sekali-kali kebencianmu terhadap sesuatu kaum, mendorong kamu untuk berlaku tidak adil. Berlaku adillah, karena adil itu lebih dekat kepada takwa. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan."

Al-Maidah, 5: 8

I was deeply disappointed by her attitude

thought it was unfair, what she did

didn't keep to her promise, didn't guard an amanah

worst, to burden others with her emotional tantrums

are we suppose to just accept that?

that it's her personality?

accept that, and yet the heart is seething with suuzon (bad impression)?

frankly, sick and tired of it

hate to see her in that light

hate that I 'hate'

 thought that I was calm when deliberating

thought I had everything under control

yet, these words keep popping up, serve as a reminder

a reminder of what?

"...do not let the hatred of a people prevent you from being just. 

Be just; that is nearer to righteousness..."

did I made my choices based on my emotions, too?

had I also, been unfair?

I might have, haven't I?

that ain't right

that's not right at all

some people fear confrontations

seeing them as uncivilized

so what?

walk away?

denial doesn't solve problem

have lived my life under that consequences

when the outburst happens, hurts more than if truth be told from the beginning

truth hurts

yet, it's ideal

to be fair

for everyone

especially for the perpetrator

to save them 'from' themselves

it's not rude at all

when your intentions are not to judge

but to be fair

"berlaku adillah"

I have to
it's nearer to takwa
if I fear Allah swt, I should be fair
confront...with lillahtaala in the heart
don't confront if there's even a string of anger still exist within

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