A bad day

Bismillah...

"... berlaku adillah."

I...tried

the result confuses me, hurts me

threatens to break me

what made their heart a blackened tone?

their voice a mockery?

what possessed them to utter words that a Mukmin wouldn't have said?

"No. No. No."

"who said that? I'll give them a piece of my mind."

"They're wrong. You're wrong. I'm right."

what to do?

I slipped away before I uttered a retaliation in anger

no, Sayyidina Ali r.a wouldn't have done that either

when a Musyrikin spat at his face in Ghuzwul Badar, he lowered the sword intended to kill him

"why? why didn't you kill me?"

"because at first I tried to kill you for the sake of Allah swt, but when you spat at me, I'm afraid I'd strike you because of my anger." 

*I wouldn't be beaten down by my own nafs. I did this because of Allah swt.*

Protect that niat.

Even when they threaten to break me down.

"Allah telah menetapkan: "Aku dan rasul-rasul-Ku pasti menang". 

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuat lagi Maha Perkasa." 

Al-Mujadilah, 58 : 21

Forgive them when they seek it from You, O Allah

for I have forgiven them

what's the use of holding unto this anger?

when it (anger) came from the same syaitan who whispers those words into their ears

I feared that they'd forget

"Syaitan telah menguasai mereka lalu menjadikan mereka lupa mengingat Allah; mereka itulah golongan syaitan. Ketahuilah, bahwa sesungguhnya golongan syaitan itulah golongan yang merugi."

Al-Mujadilah, 58: 19

You will win, O Allah~

Your Words would win~

*am holding unto that* 

"You are the One who makes me strong.

I wouldn't be beaten.

If I hold on to You, come what may

this uncharted water, I'd cross it

I'd crossed this ocean

because I'd know You'd be the One guiding me."

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