Make me strong

Bismillah ...

edited.. 12.02.2012 (Sunday)

I was reading my previous entry, titled 'Waiting'

..and there's a chord played true.

and I found myself shaking

at first...there's something about this song that moves me and yet, I couldn't truly figure out the 'why'

today...(Ya Allah :"( ) here's why

:: Make Me Strong ::

I know I'm waiting

Waiting for something

Something to happen to me
(Do you know? That in the Al-Quran, these words were repeatedly said.. "we (Mukmin) are waiting, verily, they (Kafir) are waiting too.." Waiting for what, exactly? For the Day that is promised to us..The Day of Judgement :"( )

But this waiting comes with

Trials and challenges

Nothing in life is free
(Our trials in Dunya, in facing His Halal and Haram. That the path to Jannah is not lined with petals, yet with thorns. You have to fight! You have to seriously fight against your nafsu and be patient in your loyalty (ketaatan) to Allah SWT..until that day)

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out aloud

That on that day I'll be ok
(Ya Allah, tell me on that day (Day of Judgement), I'll be ok, that I'll have my deeds passed in my right hand, that my position in Jannah is confirmed)

But we'll never know cause

That's not the way it works
(...but that's not the way it works :"( )

Help me find my way
(Help me to endure, to survive, to be rightly-guided always in this Dunya)

Chorus:

My Lord show me right from wrong
(Surah As-Syams: the heart is always given the intuition of right and wrong)

Give me light make me strong
(The light..hidayah & Your Rahmat in choosing the right one, to held strong to that path)

I know the road is long
(The road..the journey until that 'Day' is long)

Make me strong

Sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch
(Sometimes, I collapse in bearing the weight of right and wrong. sometimes...I took a seriously wrong mistep :"(((( ) 

I know the road is long

Make me strong

I know I'm waiting

Yearning for something (Jannah)

Something known only to me 
(Only You and me know what's in my heart)

This waiting comes with

Trials and challenges

Life is one mystery
(I'll never be sure who I am going to live my life as, as a mukmin or munafiq
...where I'll end up, Khusnul khotimah or suul khotimah)

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out aloud

That on the day You'll forgive me
(..am I amongst those You've forgiven, O Allah Most Forgiving?)

But we'll never know cause
That's not the way it works
(I wouldn't know..I wouldn't know until that 'Day')
I beg for Your Mercy
(Please forgive me, Ya Allah :"( 
Forgive my sins, from the past, present and future
Forgive me, Ya Allah
Forgive me, Ya Allah
Forgive me, Ya Allah :"(((((( )

Chorus:

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