July 01, 2016

When I was younger

Bismillah..

 The moment you lose yourself
is not seeing yourself in the decisions you make
no matter how good, how right they are
or how bad, how wrong they are

because in the process
you just forget why
why you do it
...and to blame others, the situation, something 'else' other than self
when something goes wrong 

because that's easier

or is it?

Being afraid, being hateful, 
being happy, being joyful
life will play itself on its own
without you grasping everything, trying to script it, control it

the best you can do
is to decide by that force of will

.. and will can be a selfish one or a selfless one

so can you say you wouldn't regret it?

when that will is 'guided'
the comfort, the protection He offered
like water flowing through a deserted land

offers hope in times of despair
in times where the illogical
the cruel times and event
when indecision and hesitation vibrates through being

why their names resound so loud?
guilt? duty? love?
whatever it is...action is wanted

the silence holds no ground
breeds fear and indecision

so be truthful, young one
as long as you know Allah swt asks it of you
He will pour bil hikmah in your words and actions
despite ownself belief ownself has no power, or lack the iman (faith) to carry the words carefully

Guide us, Ya Hadi~
lest we be astray

as You have taught us our words and movements whilst we were young
by the power of Your pen, we entrust our lives

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