to be certain

Bismillah...

Cause' I didn't like to leave things uncertain...

"And they were not commanded except to worship Allah , 

[being] sincere to Him in religion, 

inclining to truth, 

and to establish prayer and to give zakah. 

And that is the correct religion. "

Al-Bayyinah,98:5

There's a scene I like from Omar series that I watched recently, the people from Yathrib came and the leader warned them, if they still held doubts...they'd better return back to Yathrib (Medinah). His people said, 

"we didn't come all the way from Yathrib to turn away from the truth that is clear to us."

and they completed the first pledge (Baiah Aqabah)

If one wishes to be sincere to Allah in religion

don't held doubts

doubts bring you down

appeal to the truth

not own nafs

even if it hurts, even if its tiring

I can never forgive myself for leaving, for staying in the sidelines

for making excuses...

I know I'm tired sometimes, physically...but oh, if you could see the state of my heart

...in Jannah, their words are.. "tired? what is that?" 

We'll forget about it. We'll forget we'd ever complain

I didn't come all the way here to turn my back from it

please...even if my feet bleeds...that's better for me

cause I need to prove to Allah swt that this self is truly for Him

how do we know (how sincere we are)...

well, that's the matter of own heart and Allah swt, isn't it?

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