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Bismillah..

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Ships toward His Redha

Bismillah..

Different people

Different ways

Yet Allah s.w.t understands each and everyone of us

our sadness, our happiness, our disappointment

Reading the Qur'an, fascinated by how Allah s.w.t interacted with Rasulullah s.a.w and the sahabah

touches upon their innermost worries

how close they are to know each other's redha

 "...Allah ridha terhadap mereka dan merekapun ridha kepada-Nya. "

- Al-Bayyinah,98:8

"why was it always mentioned to mu'min

Do not fear or be sad?"

"Because if we're constantly ok, we might not feel the need to refer to Him

but to always turn to Him..

His words of comfort, imprinted in the Qur'an

even 1400 ++ years later

to tell us

you're not alone

"I've been there, too."

:")"

..and each of us has different needs, capabilities

and Islam is flexible in the pursuit of truth, as long as it is within syarie'

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bertakwalah kepada Allah dan carilah wasilah (jalan) yang mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya, dan berjihadlah pada jalan-Nya, supaya kamu mendapat keberuntungan."

-Al-Maidah, 5:35

..use your 'healthy mind' to judge the wrongs and rights of the worlds. 

Ouch, ouch and triple ouch! :"(

"Katakanlah: "Tidak sama yang buruk dengan yang baik, meskipun banyaknya yang buruk itu menarik hatimu, maka bertakwalah kepada Allah hai orang-orang berakal, agar kamu mendapat keberuntungan"

-Al-Ma'idah, 5:100

First, Niat.

ALWAYS go back to Allah s.w.t

whatever happens, hold on to that anchor with your molars

Daripada Abi Nijih 'Irbadh bin Sariyah r.a. berkata, "Telah menasihati kami oleh Rasulullah saw. akan satu nasihat yang menggetarkan hati kami dan menitiskan air mata kami ketika mendengarnya, lalu kami berkata, Ya Rasulullah! Seolah-olah ini adalah nasihat yang terakhir sekali maka berilah pesanan kepada kami." 

Lalu baginda pun bersabda, "Aku berwasiat akan kamu supaya sentiasa bertakwa kepada Allah dan mendengar serta taat (kepada pemimpin) sekalipun yang meminpin kamu itu hanya seorang hamba. Sesungguhnya sesiapa yang panjang umurnya daripada kamu pasti ia akan melihat perselisihan yang banyak. Maka hendaklah kamu berpegang teguh dengan sunnahku dan sunnah para khulafa Ar Rasyidin dan gigitlah sunah-sunah itu dengan gigi geraham dan jauhilah perkara-perkara yang baru (bid'ah) yang diada-adakan, kerana sesungguhnya tiap-tiap bid'ah itu adalah sesat."

H.R. Abu Daud dan Tirmizi

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just to commemorate a piece of memory

when I've been fighting to know who I am

who I can hold on to

in the end, I'll always know Allah s.w.t alone can save me from myself,  from others

a friend asked me

"if this ship is broken, I'd rather go to the next one

we're still riding the same waves, right?

"what about the process?

what about when you jump into the sea to grab a hold and board the other ship?

are you sure you wouldn't be drown?"

have faith and stay

have faith and be patient

some things are just wrong, yes

we can fix it

rather than escaping to find a 'better' ship

try to stay and fix this, together

because once upon a time,

 for me

unaware that I've made that leap into the sea

and yet Allah s.w.t saved me

He told me to hold on to that anchor, 

even with my own molars

"Hold on," He said

"Hold on" "

because even in reality

this ummah is broken

be the hand who knows how to fix the boards, the sails

there is hurt

there is a heal

do you think you'll not be tested?

where does this patience and acceptance comes from?

its from watching them (my ummah) last umrah trip

somehow that image stayed with me

of the people who 'wanted' to be saved

bear this for a while

and fix the niat of every  pilot, of every workers, of every passengers

insyaAllah, that saff will be filled

that saff will be filled :")

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Air-walking

Bismillah..

have only realized..

how sheltered my life has been

came to this point

when suddenly the mist dissipated

and see this rope suspended in midair

to somewhere from where I am

if its just a straight white line drawn on a tar road

this'll be an easy feat wouldn't it

but to feel the sudden ringing in the ears

to see a deep abyss down below

stomach contracted in fear

and would found self, reluctant to take a step forward

not knowing where I stand

not knowing where'll I'll end up

whether I'll make it to the finishing line

close thy eyes

and believe it'd be that easy

that there's no difference between the first and second image

have faith and walk on

easy to say but..

"don't think, just do. 

It'll get easier.

I promise."

-htc

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A special moment

Bismillah..

Happy, sad, relieved, thankful (bersyukur)..

"Jaga aa, kawan kami ani.

Kami sayang ia ni."

-H.N's Nikah

O Allah, Alhamdulillah for her return

stay steadfast, my dear

..and uhhibukifillah~ :")

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Question marks

Bismillah..

"The maybe's of my heart may either destroy or salvage me."

- Long-coat wanderer

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang maksudnya: "Ketahuilah bahawa dalam jasad manusia ada seketul daging (segumpal darah), jika baik maka baiklah seluruh anggota dan jika rosak maka rosaklah seluruh anggota, itulah hati.”

-Bukhari dan Muslim

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My brothers, my sisters~

Bismillah..

"THE GUNFIRE AROUND us makes it hard to hear. 

But the human voice is different from other sounds. 

It can be heard over noises that bury everything else. 

Even when it's not shouting. 

Even when it's just a whisper. 

Even the lowest whisper can be heard - -over armies... 

when it's telling the truth. "

- The Interpreter


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Masa lapang

"Jika kamu tidak mengisi masamu dengan Islam, 
maka jahiliyyah akan mengisinya."

Astaghfirullahalazim~ :"(

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Elective Mutism 101

Bismillah..

sat in a circle

seven of us

narrating the hadith on malaikat (angels) who spread their wings

to provide their own circle of comfort around us, rahmat from Allah swt

for those who learn

wanting to learn about His deen

to send His love for those who do good deeds

Ammar was strangely quite then

whilst reciting Surah Al-Fatihah

suddenly his tears burst

everyone were in alarm while finishing the surah

I gestured quietly to him to sit by me

it was a long time before he managed to say it

that he felt fear

not of malaikat, parents, etc..

about someone

at that moment, felt the acute need to shelter these kids

aware how seven souls, seven hearts float about that place

own individuals, with own hopes and fears, despite being 5-years-olds

how important it is to encourage them to express more

so that they understand their own footing in this world

whether they trip, bump or get blisters while off to their adventures

there'll be a safety net, saying that it'll be ok

was thinking of Torey Hayden's book I've just read, then

have managed a few collection of her works

non-fictions...her real experiences with special education

of children who 'choose' not to speak

On a deep level, I can relate to her in so many ways

how we're somehow drawn to these children (mute, shy ones)

our teaching methods, our natural intuition to understand a child's emotions

how we caught their simplest gestures..or rather, I'm learning how to see like her

my introduction to elective mute begins with Syazwan

fate has it, I encountered Torey's book a few weeks after that 

compare to hundreds of educational books (teaching methods, class management, etc)

one of her novel is enough 

;D


and there's one point I found her most endearing in all non-fiction I've read
she is herself
didn't try to hide her flaws
stood by her own convictions, own up to her own anger

and still willing to listen, to be open of other possibilities despite personality clashes
a very human humane book :)

a few of my own personal library:

Who is Torey Hayden

Her qualification for writing these books

 Born: 21 May, 1951 in Livingston, Montana, USA

Dr. Michael Marlowe of Appalachian State University in Boone, North Carolina, USA has undertaken extensive academic research on the effective use of Torey's books in training new teachers and how the books can affect long-term attitudes towards individuals with special needs.
During the 1970s Torey studies elective mutism, which was at that time poorly-reported.
Most of her work was done in conjunction with work at the Department of Maternal and Child Health and the Department of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry Minnesota. She presented her research to the national conference of the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry in 1978. And is a well known and respected name in her profession

A very full and colourful Career in teaching and education/psychology

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Leaders

Bismillah..

"Be a friend, not a superior"

Just had a talk with my loves yesterday, on how to guide. I still remember what their brother-in-law said..that with who they are now (character, etc), they're not ready to lead anyone. He shook his head in disbelief. 
I'm their mentor, personally I know there are many imperfections..but I believe in them. Give them that trust and they'll rise above, no matter what. If you set an expectation too early, judge too early..you'll go nowhere.
Worst, you're not a good teacher.


"have faith in them and they'll learn to have faith in themselves."


A brother helped me through those crises once, a simple cheer, a few advice. A simple act but pushed me forward, nevertheless. Insecurities, shyness, self-doubt aside..I survived. If you lay down high expectations on yourself, bottling it up, and facing disapproval will by no means would ever provide a good outcome.


Rather than a negative prep-talk, why not give something in which you know you can improve.


 I still remembered the conversations I've had with my juniors a few weeks earlier, on being leaders.
On seeing realities and ideals...how as seniors, they should know how to lead. The ability is in them, you just have to broaden the scope they've seen. Because there's a serious imbalance of senior-junior, male-female, experience-wise.. that it affects their working relationships.


I asked, "Do you know who they are?"
"Their faces, their names, their abilities?"


a silent shake.
"Start with that," I said.


Listen well is good, but respond well, too. Even children look up at their teacher, cautious of their answers (whether its right or wrong). Am not denying the logistics..girls seems to have the ability to produce paperwork out of thin air, wherever you go. It's a plus-side..
Learn that naive as they seem..the guys think outside the box, and have a perseverance in them. Don't think them as juniors - am not excluding the fact they 'are' juniors - but learn to seek their opinions like an equal. Create a family, by first understanding each others strength and weakness. Treat them as humans, not robots. Build, guide their understanding with your experiences..the ability 'is' there.
Start where 'they' are, not where you are. Set a bar they can reach, step-by-step and increase them to your expectations...and insyaAllah, they'll rise above it, would surprise you. Celebrate them at every stages of their development.
Regardless of gender and age, human heart is the same..the feeling of wanting to be acknowledge..to feel you that you have a part, a purpose in whatever you do.

*laugh* sometimes I feel like a mother saying all  of those.


"treat others the way you'd like to be treated."


I'd like to be treated with respect.
To be accepted, regardless of my flaws and weaknesses.
I'm willing to be taught, but please understand my stages
have patience with me and guide me
have faith in me.
(Trust)
- a dear friend said this, and experiences (no matter how bad they were) confirmed it.


Refer to past where you can learn from them, not where you can find blame in them.


Grow, my dear.
Pluck up your weeds, spray insecticides from the baddies, be watered with good minerals and clean intentions.
..and stretch your branch out to the skies.


Lead as how Allah SWT would like you to lead, with hikmah. The knowledge is 'in' you. 
"Have faith."
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solitude

Bismillah..

"loneliness is the poverty of self,

solitude is the richness of self."

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