Beneath thy Earth

numb

how can i look up now?
unable to lift my head ='(

different from 2004 Acheh's Tsunami
different from the earthquakes, typhoons..the things i've learned from Environmental Hazard course last semester
my grade for it was pretty high..but what of it?
what use is it?
when the heart fell
a loud thunk to the bottom
inside..

why?

can you imagine it?
it's the feeling you get when death is so close
as if it's staring you in the face..by inches, nose to nose

heard of Haiti..of all those relief efforts that all those Hollywood stars work so hard upon..give a hand..give a hand..
i didn't bother
not much because it felt so surreal, so far away
but rather i had the same feeling wrapped up around the catastrophe, similar as of Hurricane Katrina in New Orleans
in both places, black magic, voodoo
overwhelming and crawls into our lives worse than a deadly virus
thick with it's deep secret, deceitful plans, of murderous intent and raw greed
it's a cleansing act

but something grabbed hold
squeeze this windpipe and choke out this tears away

217,000 people
no matter what
human
am, that, too

217,000 is a lot
217,000

how small are we?
when the world is flattened, the earth vomit its content, the sky falls..The Day of Judgement..that number is all so very little
Being in that much of a crowd
so easily be dismissed
when your arms flailing from the rubble
you can see and touch the air
you were crying out with your whole heart "Help! Help!"...till your voice becomes dry, hoarse and exhausted
when that person passed you by
couldn't see you..couldn't hear you..couldn't save you
oh God,no!!!!
tears fall, with great hope and fear
hoping so much to be saved..

and here i am, about to lay back after school and enjoy a cup of coffee
reflecting and smiling at my students behaviour

how comfortable..

='(
and i didn't learn from this
from the ever existing voices that rise from below the ground
still..they are there
still..now,at this very second..there's still people trapped inside!
voices of regret..of deals and agreements are made between them and God
save me and i will submit myself to You!!
i promise!
i promise!
i promise!
a fervent wish
though, when this becomes a past
we begin to forget
forget that we made a deal with Him

on the day of Judgement
there's a more sorrowful voices than that, could be heard
"Woe is me! Woe is me!"
(Celakalah aku! Celakalah aku!)

but by then..
it's all too late..
.
.
.

"Kami tidak mengutus sebelum kamu, melainkan orang laki-laki yang Kami berikan wahyu kepadanya di antara penduduk negeri.
Maka tidakkah mereka bepergian di muka bumi lalu melihat bagaimana kesudahan orang-orang sebelum mereka (yang mendustakan rasul) dan sesungguhnya kampung akhirat adalah lebih baik bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa.

Maka tidakkah kamu memikirkannya?"

Surah Yusuf,12:109

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my 60th entry
if that's an age..

before it's too late
fastabikurats (bekejarlah dlm kebaikkan)!