Stay calm

Bismillah...

It's a trick I've learned recently

suddenly the world is upturned (or so it seems) and people are panicking left and right, eyes dilated, anxious and beside themselves with worry

at one time, I've been in that mess, too

but a talk with my eldest sister calmed me.

she said, "stood your ground. People will keep throwing suggestions at you, but you have to know that your intuition is also right. speak out."

"How can I, when there's no win-win in trying to negotiate/talking with them? How can I, when I've been shouted at, criticized at every turn?," I replied.

yet, there's one thing I found comfort in

someone, at least, is on my side

someone, at least, understood

someone, at least, forgives when I'm being selfish

...and so, I stood up

sometimes it's looking at their eyes, hold them by their shoulders and say, 

"ok, stay calm"

the world would be right again, breathe and think

the answer is always there

the options are always there

turn a 'no' into a 'yes'

if you're a leader, act like it

if those around you doesn't follow your lead, then there's something wrong

either with the ambition and direction, or with the ways (qudwah)

so, am holding back the reins

and O Allah, Thank You~ Thank You..

that when the moment finally came for me to stand up for my own

I didn't have to fight that much with those I cared about

that I 'can' find someone to rely on

that I 'can' trust others to help me

be kind, Han

be kind

and indeed there's a mystery that I could never have seen

how could I have foreseen that?

I can't. 
for once, these things are beyond my logic

yet, it exist.

it has come

the  puzzle

Your puzzle coming into place

will I ever cease to be surprised from You, Al-Bari' (Maha Perancang)? 

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Aina Allah?

Bismillah...

"Aina Allah?"

(Dimana Allah)

"Di segala yang ada

di LANGIT dan BUMI

Di segala yang ada di AIR

di TANAH

UDARA

ANGIN

TUMBUHAN

dan MANUSIA.

Allah meliputi segalanya"

- Sang Pencerah

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"Be at peace with Allah"

Transcendence beyond a human touch

No matter how small, have a magnified value

every cell, every atom of us

created by our Khaliq (Creator)

something that can't quite be explained

such as WIND

we can learn how wind is formed, the different layers, its function, its location

but can one explained the beauty of having it under the fingertips?

the feeling of being freed even in mere small seconds?

of PLANTS

how small it starts, just a seedling

yet, from it, pushed forth a stem, a leaf, a fruit

shot upwards, embracing the sky, its stem changing from green to brown

from flimsy to tough bark

of EARTH

the warmth it stores

the sound of running water underneath it

of how it preserves our natural resources, home of our rezeki (oil, plants, etc)

of how the small grains feel gives one a sense of tranquility (Japanese zen garden)

Ya Khaliq,

the CREATOR of all these things

who Created US, from a mere cell, a blood clot

who taught us all these knowledge which we do not know before

Al-Alaq: 1-2

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peculiar..

"hmm..Mangah, apakan baunya tu? Kayu kah? Nyaman baunya."
-Asyraaf

"cana? Sanang kh payah baca?"
"hehehe..payah, cigu"
"mau pandai baca buku sendiri?"
*nods*
"bah, kalau ia rajin, habis ni 8 set. hujung tahun, boleh sudah baca buku sendiri, napayah orang lain. Mau?"
*nods vigorously*
- Damia, 03.01.2013

Your touch, Ya Khaliq,
in the benign wonder in my nephew's eye
the fascination from just the scent of wood

Your nikmat, Ya Khaliq
how Damia progresses from one phonics to another
herself surprised by her own ability to remember
to read

...and this self own speechlessness
could barely remember how I've manage to be able to read
yet, infront of me...the evidence of Your Greatness
to even be able to form words
to read them

to suddenly 'feel' the beauty of Your Creations, nature, colours
to be able to reflect self from it
how You've taken care of us (Your creatures, Your hamba)
from the minute details to grandest ones

a gift from You
*sujud*

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